Baby #2 and future kids
I want to have more children. Well, at least one more!
During my pregnancy, I had some fibroids that grew. Believe it or not, I thought I was feeling my baby's head or foot during my pregnancy, but actually, it was a giant fibroid coming in at 10cm. That wasn't the only one. When I had an appointment four months postpartum, they told me I had 10 fibroids in total. The Obgyn said that if I wanted to have children again, I would remove the fibroids. The Surgeon informed me if I wanted to have a hysterectomy and not have any children. I stayed quiet and was about to say yes. I told him that I had many complications in my pregnancy. I did not want to go through that again. He then said for me to take my time to think it through about having more children. I took my time and finally realized I did want another child. I wouldn't want to leave Valentina alone when she grows up. Maybe it's my anxiety about the future that gets to me, but I felt it in my heart that I want another baby, not sure how ill handle it, but I guess I'll find it out later.
My surgery got scheduled, and the nerves came in. The Dr told me that I had more than ten after almost a year of having my baby. There were some issues that he was worried about. He explained that with any surgery, there could be complications. My surgery and the amount, size of fibroids, and location could be very tricky. I had to be ready to wake up and not have a uterus, which meant no longer having another child. My heart sunk, but I understood that Doctors have to tell you the worst-case scenario, just in case. Regardless of that, it took me to anxiety mode before my surgery. At 31, I want to have more children and take that away, which is hard to think about. I prayed a lot before my surgery, but in the end, I told God that I left it all in his hands. I was so emotional the days before the surgery. My husband couldn't stay there on the day of the surgery due to COVID restrictions, but I guess I was used to that part. Though I did get nervous, I quickly calmed down and forgot about everything, thanks to the anesthesia. When I woke up, my husband was there already, and I felt like crap, but the first thing I asked was if I still had my uterus. The Surgeon came in and told me that he could remove most, but since he didn't want to do any more damage to my uterus, he had to leave some fibroids in there, but they were relatively small. (The Surgeon gave me an excellent photo of all the fibroids he took out! I don't think it would be nice to post it on here but if yall want to see it, DM me, haha.)
Thank God! Though the surgery came out a success, I still have to take precautions with my future pregnancy. I will have my children at 36-37 weeks and will all be scheduled C-Sections. I hope to get a 2nd opinion about this, but we shall see when the time comes. I am not planning on having another child anytime soon. However, I do need at least a year of healing before wanting to try and get pregnant. I don't think I can handle another child now, especially knowing my future pregnancies will be considered high risk, and I have a higher chance of PPD once again. It's very emotionally and physically draining. I see my self as a mom of 2 and focusing on my baby V right now. Unless I am pregnant with twins, then that will be a different story.
So for those that have asked, No, I don't want another one right now unless yall want to be my stay-at-home nanny for free. lol