12 weeks and things changed
I made it to the 12-week mark and had a sigh of relief. It was a few days before Christmas 2019, and I finally decided to let my family know. Finally, I decided to let it out to the world that I was expecting. I called all of my aunts and a group text to all of my cousins and friends. It was such a great feeling to have all of the love texts that I was missing out to feel comfortable about this new beginning. During this time, my sister was expecting as well and was getting ready to deliver during Christmas time. Luckily, I experienced her pregnancy and delivery to be ready for what was to come. I became so much more excited about being a mom seeing my sister deliver, and just spending time with them at home. 2020 came and with high hopes in the beginning. Everything was going wonderful with work, life, pregnancy. I was about to go on an annual trip with my sorority sisters, this time, we were heading out to Solvang, CA. We were all excited to go and relax for a bit like we have been doing for the past 10 years.
The trip started off great with some Starbucks, laughs, and memories heading down to Solvang. Once we got there, we stopped to eat before heading out to check out the city. I went to the restroom and noticed spotting once again. Great, I thought as I wiped my tears and started having a little panic attack. I am a person that shows her emotions on my sleeve, so I can't really hide when I'm angry, sad, or mad.
As I walked out of the restroom, I felt like I would pass out, not because of any pain but because of my anxiety. My friends asked if I was ok and I told them what happened with the spotting. I quickly checked for hospitals near just in case I had to go. I said there wasn't much to do, just to wait for what would happen next. We walked around the beautiful city and went straight to the hotel, and rested. I have wonderful friends that put me first and canceled our day, so I can rest. After that, the spotting went away, and we enjoyed our last day in Solvang.
That weekend the mood change for me. After that weekend, things changed, especially finding out that Kobe died. I have to put that in there because he was my favorite basketball player of all time. So it did change my mood, and it was an overwhelming weekend. 2020 would never be the same after that